In my 13-plus years of being a mom, I have never had the chance to be a stay-at-home mom. I was able to be a work at home mom for two years, when my girls were little. I ran a small day care in my own home. It meant I was with kids from 6:30 a.m. until I fell in to bed, exhausted, whenever the last of my own kids went to sleep. It was not an easy way to be at home, but it did allow me a small glimpse of that stay at home life.
Other than that short period, I have always worked outside of my home. I suppose that is why I find myself envious of stay-at-home moms. I long for pajama days with my kids. I want to be the one home with them when they have a cold and can't go to school. I want to have time to do laundry, make beds, keep house and all the other things that have become very low priorities in my life.
Now, don't get me wrong. I do love my job. But I don't work because I love my job. I work because I have to. I work to pay bills. Even with a second income, courtesy of my newlywed status, I still HAVE to work. It is not an option for me.
When the girls were little, I watched kids at home because day care for three under 3 would have been insanely expensive. Watching kids allowed me to be at home and continue to have an income. I never really made a profit with my home-based day care, but I made enough to keep food on the table.
Do other women wish to be where the grass looks greener? Would I end up going insane if I was at home? Would I long for the days of working with other grown ups? Who knows... and I don't get to find out any time soon.
So, I will be thankful that I have a job when I need one. And I will be thankful that I have lots of friends and family who help me when my girls are sick. And finally, I will remember that in so many ways, I am blessed beyond measure.
What about you? Are you where you want to be? Would you change things if you could?